When I discovered we lost Griffin, I immediately reached out to my friends for prayers. One of my friends, who happened to be a photographer offered to be at the hospital to take pictures of Griffin. This particular friend was due 3 weeks after me. So, Griffin’s body was around the same age as the little babe in her belly. I don’t know how she did it.
The pictures have been a true blessing to me and I often find myself going back through them just to see my baby once again. However, with these pictures I had this unfounded fear. A fear that my dear friend would always remember my son in a not so pleasant sight. I feared that she didn’t see him the way I saw him. Did she see his resemblance to his brothers? Was she disturb or scarred by his outward appearance? Could she see past the effects of death? I knew she did, but still I was bombarded by this fear. Deep down I wanted my son to be seen like all parents want their children to be seen…beautiful, precious, priceless.
Oh, dear friends. The Lord feels the same about His children. [Zephaniah 3:17, Psalm 139:13-18, Romans 5:8]
As I thought all of those things, I began to wonder. Lord, do I see your children? Really see them? Do I see their beauty behind all the ugliness of this world? Do I find them precious when they’re surround by the messes. Do I see their value the way You do?
I pray for forgiveness if I ever failed to see and I ask that my eyes will be open to really see God’s children like I saw my son that day- beautiful, precious, priceless.
Are your eyes open? Do you really see God’s children? Do you SEE YOU through the Heavenly Father’s eyes? Oh, friend let me tell you, no matter what this world says or does, GOD SEES YOU! He longs to be near to you. HE LOVES YOU so much that He sent His one and only son to DIE FOR YOU. You are HIS CHILD and YOU are BEAUTIFUL, PRECIOUS and PRICELESS.
Love you my friend! I know you are grieving and will continue to do so, but, what a word of encouragement that the Lord has put on your heart. I love you tons and continue to pray for you and your family! And I miss you!
I’m so sorry for your loss. But, I can assure you that your friend can see your precious son as you see him. Perfect and beautiful and loved. I am a NILMDTS photographer and I can honestly say that I see past the physical scars and I see all of the unique beauty that each precious child holds.
Thank you for your reassurance Patty. I know you are right. Deep down, I know my friend would never have ill thoughts of my son, but knowing that didn’t stop me from still having that fear…just one of those mama worries I suppose. And can I just say thank you for being available and capturing hard moments. It is truly a blessing to be able to have something to physical hold on to our precious babes.
Sending up prayers for you, Madonna. Hugging you across the miles.
Thank you Dianna.